A Letter for Father

Dibuat pada : 28 Mei 2007

A Letter for Father

Dear apap,

When i see you everyday, i just see a handsome and kind father. Never ever imagined what had you did to me in my past. How you treated me, how you punished me, how you made me hated you very much. It still can be seen the scar on my foot when you punish me using the belt. How i felt very scared to met you. Looking at you made me sick. Making me never stayed at home. But now, i see a very kind man. Standing in front of me. With your gentle smile and very great jokes. But one thing i never realized. You’re already 49 years old this year. My father, my old man. You’re already this old?? And you still working very hard every day. Through day and night.

When i wake up in the morning, you’re already gone to work. When i get home every day, late night, seldom i see you already at home. Now, i see a great guy in front of me. My father, and this year you’ll be 49 years old. What can i do?? I even can only crying when i write this. Even now i’m working, i still feel that i do nothing to you. Even when every late night i helped you to send things, i still feel that isn’t enough. What can this useless man do for you?? How do i make you happy, my old man?? I know that me, your little boy, can’t even make you proud because of what i do ’till now. I missed your gentle hug and your encouraging words, although we always meet everyday.

Can i only say thanks for what u’ve done to me ’till now??
For how you made me become this kind of person??
For all i learned from you??

Father, apap, my old man, this words means nothin’, but i’ll do my best for you. As soon as posssible, i do not want you to work again. No more. I want you to just enjoying your time as my old man. As someone i always proud of. As my great mentor. I’ll work harder for you. Think harder for you. Laugh louder with you. And we can spending our time mucher than before. So u’ll be happy because of me. And of course proud of me 4 all i’ll do to you.

Don’t know what to say anymore… U are U, my old man.
But now, i just can say that i proud of you and i love you so much.

Your son, Han.