Destiny...

Dibuat pada : 6 Mei 2008

What does destiny mean??

Does that means that we can’t change our future or any thing that would happen to us are just unstopable?? unchangeable??
What does our life mean then, when we can’t do our will freely?? even though we feel that we can do it freely, but we’re ruled by our own destiny. How pathetic.
A person’s life, everybody’s life ruled by 1 destiny that leading them just right into their own path. We can only struggle but can’t change the path. We’ll be back to our own path just as destinied.

If that is the case, may i believe in soulmate?? Someone that just loved for and by you. Someone that’s just come into your life to make you lovable??

If that so, then maybe i’m destinied to be unlovable. Because one by one all people that i love or maybe that i though they also love me, fading away from my presence.

I think better for me to not knowing anybody because i always scared to lose ‘em.
Better for me to not loving, because it always makes me hurt.
Better for me to not believing, because i always betrayed.
Better for me to not hoping, ‘cos i always being disappointed.
Better for me to not presence, because i feel that i am invisible.
Better for me to…. be better.

Let me have the power to not knowing but become a knowable person.
Let me have the power to not loving but beeing a lovable one.
Let me have the power to not believe but i believed by everybody.
Let me have the power to not hoping and become dependable.
Let me have the power to be invisible, but everyone will always feel me there even if i am not.

But when i begging to have those power, i also need to hope, i also need to believe so i can have those power.

May i believe that hope is something that makes anybody have the power to survive??
If then, may i hope so i also can survive?? so i can always have the power to reach my own dream?? my own joy?? My own satisfaction??